Inconsistency of feelings

well i've had nothing but half an apple, 2 fingers of kit-kat and a bowl of tomato soup from morning.. (time's 20:03 hrs now)..but i still dont feel hungry..this may be a "highly calorific serving" for a hollywood chick.. but hey.. i'm in india..so i can say i've eaten less :P

ok.. so coming to the actual point.. “inconsistency of feelings”.. sigh.. it so happens.. we humans often experience this oddity where u cant keep your feelings for a person constant.. be it your friend.. bro..sis..gf..bf..teach..prof..anybody!! .. somehow you can never see yourself feeling for person the same way at all times.. why is this inconsistency? Bio ppl attribute this to the rising and ebbing levels of chemicals like dopomin and serotonin..etc etc.. but since i'm no bio pundit.. let me have my own take on this..

most often, we try (in vain) to reason why we are feeling the way we do.. but factually.. i doubt if an answer to this "why" exists.. but u know what.. next time ur feeling like this.. try what i do.. try and look at this whole thing from a third person field of view.. like come out of yourself and observe whats happening to you.. and believe me.. u neednt be too surprised if ur laughing at yourself.. its in us..all of us.. to handle other's problems / confusions efficiently..but when it comes one's self.. things often get blown outta proportion.. so when u look at your problems rather than feeling them.. you ll be better sooner.. :)

Shakespeare goes like: "most friendship's feigning..most loving's mere folly.." .. ask me one day and i ll tell you shakey is 100% right and next day u ll have ranting, "Had shakey lost his head to compose such negative crap??!! " ..lol..

i read this somewhere.. say a duck is cruising around in a lake.. and somebody suddenly throws a stone into the waters.. now the duck can either fly away to glory ("safety" that is :P) .. or choose to move in / with the ripples in the water.. and see how it feels.. btw.. what would u choose?

missing dandiya :(

its navrathri time.. today's supposed to be durgashtami.. eight days into this whole celebration and still no dandiya rass!! how sad :( bad :( mad :(
its been years i've danced at a dandiya night!!.. all the loud and blaring gujarati muzique, the dhol, the colors, the people, the "mauhaul" (atmosphere).. suddenly i seem to missing all of it so much..
chal.. abhi tasweerein dekhke hi jee bhar lun.. :|

the memories itself are so very old.. they're just as vague as that photograph :|

My experiments with Tamizh :P

yeah!..i'm talking about tamil nadu and of course!.. tami'zh'ans

my mom recalls a convo i had with my grandpa when i was abt 6 years old..it goes like this:
(the below convo was in kannada)

grandad:the tamilians have a unique way of spelling everything..
me: yeah, thathu.. sometimes i dont even understand what my friends at school speak..

grandad: whats it they call 'chappathi' ?
me: oh! That.. they call it something like this: “sappathi”..

grandad: what about 'dosa'?
me: something like 'thosai'!

grandad: did they retain 'idly' atleast?
(i seriously have lost it at this point for it seems i have replied..)

me: no.. its not 'idly'!.. they call it 'thidly'..!!
(i do know i must have been lying about “thidly”.. jus for the fun of it :P)

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so thats that.. one more thing that really intrigues me is how they say: “tea / coffe saapdu”..lol.. honestly!.. in all other langs.. its like “tea taagu”(telugu) or “tea togoli”(kandu) or “chai piyo” (hindi) !!!!!
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i also remember the day when i was making announcements and ended up spelling “azhagarasi” as “az-hag-arasi”.. all the time thinking if it was of african origin or what!.. only realised later that it was infact “la” for “zh”.. when my friends who were listening dissolved into a sea of laughter!

to date.. my efforts to speak flawless tamil continues.. i have nothing against the language as such.. but it gets you in a lot of trouble when you try to get away by making cross-linguistic translations..and end up making an entirely inappropriate statement!!!.. unless the person listening to you knows the degree of ur “proficiency” in tamil.. well.. you can guess what can happen!! (i learnt it the hard way.. not once ..not twice..almost everytime!) lol!!

Interlagos !!

here's how the standings are with ONE race to go: hamilton at 107, Alonso at 103.. (i'm not mentioning kimi cos' i know he wont win ;) )
Having followed the sport (F1 that is) for about 9 years now, i've never been so keen / curious (for alonso) about the results.. not when hakkinen was around..not even during the close shave schumi survived from then-greenhorn kimi in 2003.. with the hilarious juggle the grand-stand has seen this season i honestly want it all to end :|
ok..now even if schumi is a 7 times King, i still can say i've got used to seeing alonso win (in the past couple years).. the thing is, this new lewis guy thinks different (much to my intrigue and annoyance)
Its all gonna be decided at Interlagos on Oct 21.. a dream result would be Alonso winning the race with hamilton finishing 5 points short of his 'team mate' :_) but i doubt if this will happen because this hamilton guy, the supposed-to-be thumb-sucking greenhorn rookie is proving to be more than that..
Lewis Hamilton fans anyone? :P